We went into the deep dark layer of hell we never go to.....the baby section. Except for now it is heaven. We just couldn't help ourselves. We were saying we are going to pick stuff like this and definitely not stuff like that. It was so friggin fun! DH said when he was at the mall he stopped and watch a pregnant lady on the carousel. At first I was like eew creeper, but he said he couldn't tell me what she even looked like. He was just fixated on the belly and daydreaming of things to come. How cute! I broke down and bought a belly band. I'm not going to lie, old body image issues die hard and I'm embarrassed of my growing belly. Mostly because I feel I shouldn't be showing anything. I know most of it is bloat. The only way I can describe it is I know it's belly fat and bloat but I just don't have the energy or ability to suck it in quite like I used to. I feel like I've done one to many ab workouts. I have been feeling a lot of pulling and stretching of which I'm told is ligament pain.
We told my SIL and MIL today. We will tell my parents on Xmas. IL live in Maine so we didn't want them to find out through the grape vine. Plus his family could really use some good news. We lost his dad this year to cancer and it has been a craptastic year since then for them. They needed this. We told my MIL we mailed her xmas presents up but there was one we couldn't give her until August. She said oh that's fine (totally didn't click) My husband says mother..... then it clicks. We laughed, we cried. She thanked us! She really needs something to look forward to.
I'll be telling my parents via a picture frame that says grandchild and pictures of the pee sticks. I'm sooo excited to see my mom's reaction.
I'm scared to death we are jumping the gun by telling people. I'm a planner though so my back up plan is to designate one person in each family and my boss at work to send out a email to let the masses know something bad happened and we don't ever want to talk about it. I know that probably sounds depressing but I have to be prepared for the worse and hope for the best.
4 Weeks
Symptoms: fatigue, ligament pain, fatigue, random nausea, did I mention fatigue
Best moment this week: Getting that number. I was hoping for something in the 100s so 302 was amazing!
Food cravings: Pizza. I've literally ate it every damn day for a week.
What I miss: There really isn't much. OK that's not true, I miss having days off from when I was stimulating. 12 hour shifts are really hard!
What I am looking forward to: Telling my parents! It was great to tell my MIL and SIL but I can't wait to tell my mama. Is it weird I hope she cries lol
Next Appointment: Next tuesday for beta 2
Milestones: Well I think we have hit one major milestone in becoming pregnant. I honestly never thought it would work. I don't think our RE did either. When our nurse told her she couldn't figure out who she was talking about. I know she knows who we are, I just think she didn't think it was possible. God works miracles!
Congratulations! Don't feel bad about the belly band. I too bought one the day of my BFP and I had a very similar comparison to the maternity/baby department. I believe I compared it to the Land of Mordor. :P Congrats again and enjoy this very special time!
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