You want me to consent to wha?!?

Yesterday the DH and I spent 30 minutes in the RE office signing our life away. Ok not even just our life but our "unused" embies. We had to make a game time decision if one or both of us die (not fun to think about) what do we do with the left overs. Granted A) we've signed these before and B) in 2 cycles we haven't had any survive to the freezing stage. Still reading the words "If you or your spouse DIES" I'm one of those irrational people that lay awake at night crying, no sobbing, about what will happen if my husband get in an accident at work, gets cancer, gets hit by a bus, gets crushed by a meteor coming to earth! (Have I mentioned I'm not rational) This man has been my best friend for ten years, I met him when I was 16, I grew up with him! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO OK! If I could ever crawl out of bed again, can I then decided what I'll do with our potential children. Needless to say it makes ya think. Now lets add another layer to the madness. For us we believe life begins at conception, no matter the vessel in which that conception occurs. I am one of those people that I believe what I believe, you believe what you believe, I won't try to change your mind, please don't try to change mine. So I mean no disrespect to anyone who believes differently and I cast no judgement on you AT ALL! For us though this is what we believe. Let me also say, for us, I feel like IVF is a little in the gray area. Sometimes I have that good ol catholic guilt that I may be trying to play God by getting artificial help with creating a family.  The catholic church's stance on it is God is calling you to adopt. My feeling is God won't punish us for creating a child out of love. We have thought about, prepared for, and prayed for this child. I just can't wrap my head around being punished for that..... but this is probably a wholllleee other blog post. So anyway what it boils down to is we decided that if we die we want what is left over to be donated to science. I know what you're thinking.... but you said life begins at conception. Our thought is again, no one ever makes it to freezing and if they did we will likely use them. We have to choice to change our minds if we do cryopreserve. Also I am a Registered Nurse so I have a solid faith in science. I feel my embryos will better serve as a greater help to humanity by the studying done one them. Who knew we had to think about so much when we started this process?

Now onto the risk section.  So your telling me there's a chance of death! Umm I may need you to repeat that.  I think the actual percentage is less than 1%.  It makes me think of the movie dumb and dumber quote "So you're telling me there's a chance!"

That's a hard pill to swallow. Oh and don't forget the all to familiar OHSS...only had that twice so expect it again.

So basically we just signed the damn things.  My hubby looked at me like why are you freaking out? We already signed these. We didn't change anything right? Thanks babe always putting things in perspective... I guess.

So now we are signed sealed delivered. Start lupron 10/11. I'm going to try to have Llyod's optimism and excitement!