And it begins....

Welcome to my blog! I'm new to this so please bear with me as I stumble through technology. I'm one you may call technologically stunted. Let’s start with a brief history.

Me: PCOS (“lean” not ever really sure what that means)
DH: Low count
Together: SCREWED

Feb 2011 IVF#1: Retrieved 18ish eggs, decided we only wanted to fertilize as many as we would use so ICSI’d 12.  10 fertilized. Everyone did well until day 4 then pooped out. Transferred 2 very low quality embies. Surprise Surprise BFN L

May 2011 IVF #2” Changed up the protocol. Started with lupron while still on BC. Also began acupuncture (best naps ever!) OHSS again! But also mild and symptoms were easier thanks to good ol’ Chinese needles. Again with the pooping out my little embies L and again surprise surprise BFN.

Upcoming IVF #3 scheduled for over Thanksgiving. We have been doing acupuncture for 3 months now. So cross your fingers, legs, arms…..EVERYTHING! Mama needs a baby

So that’s the basic in a nut shell….a very small nutshell. But as many you who have gone through this know that is sooooo the tip of the iceberg.

We got married in 2007 (but I was not a virgin bride may be tmi but let put it this way… in the 6 years we dated before we got married I was on BC for 3 months. Clearly I had a sneaky suspicion something was array.)

For a year every month I bought a PT … ok that’s a lie I’m not regular so every time I thought AF was supposed to come I bought a PT. It’s pretty crushing to only see 1 line. I even convinced my Primary care doctor to do a blood test once even though the pee stick said no. Bet ya can’t guess that result.

After a year I was certain something wasn’t right. Even though I was just 23 years old I wanted to get a jump on it. Off to the OB I went.  Clomid was started….i was not what you would call emotionally stable……rinse repeat times 3 months…. No baby. Oh did I fail to mention the OB gave me 3 times the recommended dose (needles to say she doesn’t work there anymore but for unrelated reasons) finally we decided to go see the RE.  Again with the nut shells…. We got test from here to next week and the above diagnoses were made. WHAT A SHOCK! At 23 and 30 years old I thought aww they’ll tell us to go home and just keep trying. Not quite.  They said forget timed intercourse, IUI, anything we are going for the big dogs! IVF PLUS ICSI. I swear I heard cha-CHING. Just in time…I got into nursing school. Anyone who has ever been through that knows you kiss your personal life good bye. At this point we thought ahh what’s another 2 years, they’re giving us a 70% chance. Thankfully I have an amazing, supportive, handsome, husband with a full time job that was willing to support me through achieving my childhood dreams. A month after receiving that RN we went through IVF #1. A million tests, more needles than I’d like to remember, total of 10 days bed rest, 2 BFN’s, and here we are. (Obviously I left a few details out…this is a blog not a novel.)
Now….. IVF#3 looms and I’ll say I’m less than ecstatic and even less hopeful. I have to actively persuade myself to think positive. Thankfully, again with the husband compliments, I have a one of a kind hubby who keeps me going.

Welcome to our Journey! Please feel free to ask questions, tell me to suck it up, encourage me….anybody Bueller Bueller. Even talking to myself helps! Hopefully at the end of this IVF will in fact make 3…or 4!